Yoga Sutras 1.1
I think the writing practice I'm about to embark on is going to assist in learning the sutras - especially sutra 1.1: And now the teaching on yoga begins... Say what? This simple statement blew my mind today because it feels like God's voice or rather like God's hand slapping me across my foolish face. Why? because I've been on a bit of a hiatus from life. A pause. And while necessary and therapeutic, there is also an internal reluctance to give into the healing process. It's like I'm too busy waiting for the other proverbial shoe to drop to actually rest and recover properly. My mind and body are in a state of constant fear and hypervigilance, so much so that anxiety renders me physically frozen yet mentally overexerted most days, desperately numbing in order to push away negative thoughts and emotions. This is as honest as I'm willing to go today in describing how dark and deep depression can feel, but one day soon, I hope to have the courage to do so. To
